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bought my bag now im semi happy. natpoh's not replying my text and shuyi will yak nonstop. cmon nat reply me!

i wanna go get scarlet letter and busy myself on the train. hannah montana back to back episodes plus thats so raven. yay. i'm such a hardcore my uncle depises my love for disney channel.

i hope my cough subsides by wednesday and i'll see char after school to report findings. yay exciting. she used to be in a classroom opp me now she's gonna be all that way in bukit batok, whilst im trapped in yishun. we're not far apart actually. :D melissatio! imu. there's always a one liner for u in each post. ah my boundless love for u. (:

that stupid @!(*#&1 iain teh is so dead. he's gonna wound up buying an extra present muaha. now i will await patiently for 11.30 to come mileymileymiley.

N, 10:32 PM



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tomorrow may spring me surprises. lovely or not, i'll take what i can get.

sorethroat's awaiting and my head's in a mess. i always go ill at the worst times possible.

pimplepimplegoaway.

N, 11:11 PM


And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it

blogger freaked on me and i realised for the nth time, i dont accept changes readily.

moss started working! omg. soon she'll be earning big buckeroos while i continue my 6weeks or studying. and that 6weeks begin in 4 days! shit.

how to adapt to awaking at 6.30 5days str8? how to lug my lazybones to commute a total worth of 90mins[or more):] 5 days str8? how to pass classtime without semllyM? how to study somewhere out of toapayoh? dammit.

4 - 2 days. today i missed you. i will try to stop going to places when the blondes and browns flourish. ):

i miss you smeeeeellllyMMMMMMMMM. 5th 5th.

N, 12:18 AM



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4 - 1(for yesterday well spent, for b&js, for winningmj:D, for the company) days left.
i dont really know what i'm expecting after the vacation, but it beats having no expectance.

semllyM leaves in 5hours! i will miss you (: have fun but not too much cause im not there. ok see you on the 5th(maybe? LOVL.)

i think you can be my valentine and birthdayboy, concurrently. have fun.

N, 6:04 PM



Phone calls from further away
and messages on my machine,
but I don't ever tell you this distance
seems terrible.

There is no need to test my heart,
with useless space.
These roads go on forever,
there will always be a place, for you.. in my heart

im tired. from the heavy downpour, from the heavy secrets thrusted upon me against my will. i hate secrets, dont tell me secrets. it sucks not being able to share it someone. makes it so easy and tempting and vulnerable to hurt.

on a lighter note, i saw 2 mr yellow blondies in a row and one bonus in my dreams. i must have gotten lucky. ever wondered how is it like to the at the opposite end of infactuations? that feeling must be great.

cramps following end-of-period always suck. but im glad it ended. now i will anticipate for half a month and expect that to strike again.

sometimes i feel wilful, hey if u do a day of me, u must feel wilful, thats a survivor tactic.

p/s. omg i was at boon's blog and dabao.sg? shit it was damn enticing. ty so much boon. its gna be on speed dial.

p/p/s. happy belated 16, josceline foo :D i dont need sacarstic lang or pokefun tones to tell u i appreciate bundles. stay happy and just the way u are, <3

N, 11:01 PM



The warmth from your hands as they hold me so close
I'm losing this fight, now I need you the most.
I'll wait for the time, though my days running thin

I'll count down the clock
I'll stop to take this all in

badbad christmas eve 06. ):

'what a curt ass', haha thanks alot iain. u have fun and i'll be looking forward to getting my oh-so-wonderful present from you (: and i learnt what's staunch. haha ty u've made xmas eve(ok afternn for me) much for bearable, loved ur storytelling.

and charm! thanks for sewing and listening. (:

my dad was so cute he unexpectedly brought back desserts and he was grinning when i said i loved to eat what he bought. ahha the man is making soup and dinner tmr so yay.

idk if ballxx can meet me! but i guess i should just shower and prepare myself and i hope i'll get to see semllyM before she leaves on the 28th.

i hope im not given up, sometimes its just so hard to get it to you. i wanna speak to you so bad and you come on and tell me i dunno. i hope i mean as much as you do to me. hell u mean alot to me, alot, t. they're my magic numbers, from you.

N, 7:43 PM



I'm begging you to ask me just one question
One simple question
Because then you'd know me

I'll tell you that there's time
To make this work for all intents and purposes
At least for my own
What is a heart worth if it's just left all alone?

oh dear, it surprises me to feel this way, but ytd was most fun when i had semllyM near me. idk what im gonna do when 07 comes. she's major now, to me :D:D
although the busride back was long and filled with angst(haha), i loved it. well not just cause we had so much to say, and certainly not because lobster had nothing to say(he's good, haha), semllyM just makes me feel at ease. and thats important.

tmr's christmas's eve and i only got presents for almond and 2/7 for M. shit! tmr. tmr ill do last minute ones. muahah. okay ill go munch on something and hannah montanaa! i love cable.

reply the mail, reply please.

N, 4:33 PM



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come come, let me show u one humsum boy:



i meet him daily on ch55 yay (:

ballxx is back and still verymuch annoying! she cant be compared to her moto though, he was so mean last night! -.-

so i got home and ready for bed at anunearthly 3am i decided to sleep in my traditional dormant delirium and woke up at an unsatisfying 3pm to a phonecall! muaha i fell victim to the bed and weather at 4.30 again and woke up at 7 HAHA i am such a pig. now my face feels swollen and lids are puffy and sheesh after effects arent at all pleasing.

so if smellyM doesnt go out, its gunbound at sf2's. how loser is that! its okay i hope we get to eat steamboat tmr :D

in the midst of all the outings and having fun, i still find myself waking up every morning(ok afternn dammit) thinking of u. u idiot. i wish someday very soon u can tell me its because of newwie that u were unreachable, not because of other reasons that make me so blue just thinking of it.

N, 10:46 PM



Maybe ive just grown out of you
Maybe we'll never know
I know sometimes ill miss you

TMR! tmr's 20th. tmr my sickening ballxx with be home, somewhere near me :D

my mom's still stuck at holland doing laundry for smelly footballers, someone give her an award! i wanted to commute down! but she didnt want me there all the better ill sleep in this awesome weather (:

annnnnnnnnnnd today was fun! i wanted to say da bomb cause smellyM's nick is bomb related and its so lame. but its so overrated so! we saw one very hot irish. but she thinks he's not cute. whateverrrr!

todaay my appetite came running back! not too fast i dont wanna start binging hehxXxx

N, 11:41 PM






O M G. those cramps of mine kill ): i want perpetual relief please. and i have been on an empty stomach since 7.45am i will die of a raptured abdomen shit.
to think i thought the acute longing was long over. to hell with valentines day 07. to hell with u turning 18. ): but no, i think i still miss u.

N, 6:48 PM



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i had to convince myself that a month old chupachups that wasnt refridgerated can still be edible before i had it and this is so melodramatic but i think it prolly tasted exceptionally sweet and satisfying because mrs tan gave it to the f&n girls for goodluck before our o's paper. omg that was a pretty long sentence. haha.

when my headache gets the better of me, i turn moody and im surprised i wasnt today. even without the help of panadol, maybe i found enlightenment muaha my angst dissolved really quickly and although it still hurts pretty badly i can deal with it. ooo is this what they call maturing? :D now i make myself sound like a gamete.

have been talking to smellyM really frequently and i found out that i really really adore her (: although her s squared f squared is terribly annoying nonetheless shes still a bunch of joy. her messages crack me up and im glad shes here to take the place of ballxx by entertaining me so much. now i cant wait to see her on tuesday <3

uhoh i think a fevers coming up, whatever is it im just not feeling good. blame it on the erratic whether, no blame it on the shifting hours of sleep i have daily. somedays i get 4 somedays im over nourished and i get 12 ):

and now im contemplating supper. how to deal!


cause you're 3 freaking days away! <3

N, 9:39 PM



jude law jude law jude law

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The Holiday was really great, i cried more than once! and i was labelled as a loser when i needed more tissues more charm. ):

i was so bored this entire afternn i even thought of going back to bed but it didnt work ): oh smellyM is shopping for shoes now, hope she finds mine! :D

and just friends is airing tonight, im so pissed! i just caught it okay! ok fine so it was like 3weeks ago BUT! what a waste of my money. okay but im so excited theres read it and weep tmr. shit im such a junkie ok bye!

N, 6:22 PM



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i have one horrible friend, and her dysfunctional name is Josceline.

N, 12:20 PM



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im too damn lazy to go find lyrics but better together sounds really good.

ballxx is stuffing herself silly, further enlarging her fatface and i really would love to show u guys but i lost my paint program haha shit.

i turned down to meet charm because once i step out of the face i will too gorge myself upside down and i cant because i promised myself that sinful mcspicy will all ild be having for the whole of today(although later if i receive a call asking if i want supper i might just say yes).

ill finally see josceline tmr and we will take alot of pictures. its been a good, idk since prom night and its good to hear the annoying whiny noise :D

now i will be a cheena pong and watch superstar, although it brings back painful memories of derrickhoh(i still love u very much). i wanna watch trust the man tmr since the holiday's gna be on friday. i love the maggie and jake(HAHA i cant seem to spell their surnames oops)

i hope the tentative date works tmr and i wanna know where ill be stuck at for the first 6 weeks of 07. i'ld love it if i can study with faith, it'll be a blast. then i can go buy pretty school bags and shoes like what every ij girl does and look pretty for school.

i need to go snip snip my locks pretty soon! my ends are pretty damaged and its starting to look frizzy EW. okay this post is pretty much no brainer. haha bye

N, 7:46 PM



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i'll let the purple(&very pretty) flowers wilt, i'll let the sweet young couple release their hands and lips from each other, and i'll continue to work hard at bursting those bubbles that grant illusion and fantasy. i'll move on and live., although sadly i know u have, since a long time ago. goodbye for now, i.f.

meanwhile,
hello dollface (moss it's a very cute name), get your mojo on. (:

N, 10:43 PM



The only thing worse than not knowing
Is you thinking that I don't know
I'm having another episode
I just need a stronger dose

finally i got to see tan shu ning and denise in their title bearing sash! haha idk what its called but concert was good! although to my right i have peter who wont stop talking. haha go horns 2007! u'll do well <3
and we saw so many seniors! gk, priscilla, clare, valerie, amelia, xiuting, aileen ahh its all good.

last night i made a decision, and i had to make one just minutes earlier. i hate making decisions, why do we have to make decisions.

okay gna meet char later! yay i think she's enjoying being in emo mode geee! somehow i feel guilty for not being lonely when ballxx aint ard! hahahha oh i cant wait to see melllyyylove tmr (:

N, 4:47 PM



Nothing goes to plan
It's all the game of chance they say in wonderland
There's magic in the air
A tragic love affair that I don't understand

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busted. later on i'll be losing both bejeweled and reversi to yeamer, sucks. she's so annoying she keeps reminding me of all the mesages im supposed to get but dont haha.

HAVE FUN BALLXX.(go to char <3 to see a picture of the 2 people she loves the most, moto comes in third -.-)

yay yay tmr's coming im so excited and i wanna wish them luck, but none of them are online! sheesh! its okay, know that i'm with u ! <3. becks decided to play the every kiasu auntie that sg is infamous for, and we're gonna get 15 freaking stalks of flowers!

charm's in camp so i have no one to squeal my Doha delight too! u think they have television sets in camp? haha

now im so sleepy yet i have to wait for The Yeamer to come just so she can beat me! ohno she sucks, okay byee

N, 10:02 PM



Give me the song and I'll sing it like I mean it
Give me the words and I'll say them like I mean it

I can't do the walk
I can't do the talk
I can't be your friend
Unless I pretend


Genting days, band days <3

was talking to seiriol last night and im looking forward to saturday night! heard that their last band camp was a fun one. geee! it had to be the one i didnt attend. haha im sure concert on sat will be a roaring success (: ij concert band, ah i never thought i'ld say this, but i miss u! the never ceasing practices, the grumpy us in band camps, the horrible december schedules, the rush and preparations before big concerts, and 'aiyah!'-folding-arms-mr-chan, and the fourths,fifths and chromaticdownscales. all good stuff :D

my nails are taking forever to dry damnit and i cant pop a sweet into my mouth cause its so in the way geee. and SEMLLY MEL is b b b back! YAY. and i suspect charm's in camp and The Yeamer embarrassed both of us! she sucks!

this afternn was horrible and it was draining, idk how to deal. ):

N, 7:29 PM



all we had
baby we could have again
and deep down you still feel it too
but you won't let me in

yesterday was much fun except i was so bored when they watched chicago and i think they felt guilty and switch dvds but yeamer and i fell asleep anyhow. the nun was so scary all 3 of us didnt dare to go pee during the night shit we're such lousy people.

my sore throat's back and im not eating bland and healthy, i hope the cough doesnt resurface.


MIDDLE, THE GOLD MEDALIST :D
oh dont we all love winners, mr-record-holder-SEAgames, (:

oh i hate the problems, i hate it we're 3000miles apart.

N, 7:54 PM



Can we make this last forever
With every word we're growing distant
And I feel as though I have to let you know


tabletennis finals! im anticipating, i wonder if its live. sheesh chn 5 sucks at televising sports events. and i have to ring charm that pig later!

ballxx is on the phone not giving two hoots about me and its so annoying. and tmr's something worth looking foward too and 5th, omg 5th. :D

alright she's about to hang up so bye

N, 10:33 PM



Those tear stained eyes can make me feel so sad
And once again we're further away from what we never had


this time, further away means game over. ): i never knew it could turn out to be such a tedious process, fairytales arent really fairytales for nothing.

i was singing and yelling at the expense of my already-sore throat at the amber pacific titles and sheesh, i realised half the time i didnt know the lyrics haha shit.

p.s tmr and i havent seen ballxxz in ages! since last sunday, omg its been a freaking week, and she thinks my new-still-pink-phone is not pretty! sheesh! actually that tag label thing at the side is quite the hindrance nad i must go figure out how to do my transfers when that phone doesnt freaking have the usb port.

okay, one last email to you oh sinfulplayer. its a wrap, finally

N, 8:43 PM



If I could paint a picture of this melody
It would be a violin without its strings
And the canvas in my mind
Sings the songs I left behind
Like pretty flowers and a sunset

semlly mel IM-ed me while i was too lazy to get out of bed and i really regretted it, but anyway, HAVE FUN (: and come back soon <3

The Yeamer is finally bbbb-back! that ass rather go shopping than inform me that she's arrived.

my head fucking hurts and its tearing my brain apart ): nobody believed me when i say i may have a tumor. haha

oh you big fat disgusting copycat
if i knew an angry smileyface, i'd post it haha

N, 7:51 PM

chijTOAPAYOH (4/9ohsix!); yjc ctg129 07


Lovelies
♥alanaa
♥beckss
♥ballxxx
♥diraaa
♥glutt!
♥nehhh
♥phyllis
♥secret admirer
♥smellyyy